I'm gettting bad at posting and updating... Sorry!

Well, A lot has happened since I last posted something. I am now for the first time in 14 months, single.. It's rather weird, but I am enjoying every second of it. It's nice not worrying about somebody and wondering how they are doing and if they are ok. I can get a lot of me time. It's frees up more time to spend with my studies and my real friends.

I am also back at school. I'm not sure if I've posted about school yet, but school this year is going much better than last year. Even though I am taking three english classes like the nerd that I am, it's a lot of working writing a shit ton of papers, but it's fun. I'm just worried about next semester for when I have to start taking science classes... I am horrible at science and I am worried I wont have the time to go to the labs and the lectures. Science classes are really time consuming I don't have a lot of time now a days thanks to my school and work schedules. I already cut my hours way back at work, and I hope I don't have to cut them back more. I need the money to pay my bills.

Speaking of work, I really want a new job.... The place I am now is getting rather annoying and I am starting to see everybody's true colors WHICH aren't so pretty. So I have applied to a few different places just to see if I could get an interview and see the pay and how many hours they are looking for somebody to work. But so far I haven't heard anything back... Maybe I should call and ask to see if they had the chance to go over my application yet. On the application it said do not call... So I really don;t know if I should.

Last but not least, family... Family has been really stressful. My grandma Helen has been really sick and my emotions have been up and down about it. Part of me feels guilt for not spending more time with her and the rest of my family, and the other part of me feels upset towards the majority of the rest of the family for not keeping me in the loop about everything and excluding me from the family. I saw my dad and talked to him for the first time in........ 8 months. I just got really upset and wanted to tell him what I really thought of him and his family, but he was upset enough about grandma being sick.... I'll save that for a rainy day.

But I should probably stop slacking on my homework and get it done..... YAY for homework......