Fighting with the fiance'... OH JOY

Well, I fucked up again.

I am really pissed at myself right now. I need to start acting like I am in college and that I can't wait to do my homework assignments at the last min. anymore. Next semester, I will find myself kicked out of school because my grades are so horrible. Last semester I had to drop so many classes due to my surgery that I had it put my on academic probation. And this semester I have just has SO much stuff going on all at once that I think I am failing a class, maybe even two. And if I do fail I will get kicked out of school for the fall semester of 2009. It put all my plans off wack and I really cant believe I messed up again.... My family is going to through a fit, and I dont know what it's going to do to my scholoar ships and my other aid when I do go back. I really need the money because I am paying for college all by myself becuase my parents really couldn't give a rats ass and my grandma doesnt have the money to help and my job doesnt pay nearly enough.

Hopefully, But I am strongly doubting this, that I will pass my classes and I'll be able to go to school in the fall. If I cant go back in the fall, I dont know what I'll do. Maybe get a second job and save up for an apartment or a car.

F.M.L.

Trying to look on the bright side of things.

Two more years and I'll be married.

A few more months and I'll be moved out.

Four more weeks and school done with until Aug.

5 more days until the staind concert!!!!

4 more days until I can see Lucas again

3 more days until I can hang out with my besties!!!

2 more days until its friday!!!

1 more day until choir!

3 more hours until work

30 more mins until I can go home

3 more seconds until I lose my mind completely

My job

Can I please quit my job? I am strongly starting to dis-like it. It's getting in the way with my homework, studying, and my relationship. Working at the pharmacy is very stressful as it is. we are always extremely busy and we ALWAYS have to deal with crabby customers and you can't help but to take it personal sometimes.

I just want to put my two weeks in and be done with it. 8 months of the pharmacy is enough for me.

To tired to function

Well, I just got home a fews days ago from breezi point resort. I had a choir event that I sang in. It was a 2 and a half day trip, and in the two and a half days, I sang about 17 hours. So I am very tired. I havent had time to sit down and just relax or get caught up on sleep. So I am sitting here at school, skipping my classes because if I dare go into my classes I will fall a sleep.

anyways

naptime

P.s. I've gone one week without smoking... YAY ME!!